Relationships are always an interesting and sticky topic to discuss. But as a Christian I know that God created us to be relational people. We need our different levels of relationships because that is how we are made. As a Christian I look forward to one day meeting that one person that God has created for me. "Then the Lord God said, 'It is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him a helper fit for him ' "(Gen. 2:18) and that helper was woman. God created us to be together and become one. "Therefore a man shall leave his father and mother and hold fast to his wife, and they shall become one flesh"(Gen 2:24). I do believe this to be true. Though it can be hard for a young, single woman to wait.
I am coming close to the age of 23 now. Five years ago I thought my life would be much different than it is now. I pretty much expected to meet my husband at college, graduate college and marry my husband shortly after. But that never happened. I have never had a "boyfriend" or been in any relationship that had the future goal of marriage in it. I have been in friendship relationships with men that have helped me grow and learn more about myself and what it is I want in a guy. In this day and age, the fact of a single 22 year old woman being single her whole life is rather inconceivable. But for me I am happy that I have not been in any relationships. Now that I look back to when there were guys that I was interested in, I see clearly that I was not ready for a relationship. I was not mature enough. I have grown in that factor, but still believe and will always believe that I need to grow more. God may not have sent me my future husband yet, but I know He is forming and creating that man and me so that we will be who He wants us to be for that other person. I may not be in a relationship now, but am growing to be content in my situation. Yes I do sometimes wish I was in a relationship, but I know that God has a bigger plan for me. But I have hope and "we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts though the Holy Spirit who has been given to us."(Rom. 5:3-5) These few verses have helped me get through a lot and I thank God for that.
Until that day comes when God bring that man into my life, I have built a small list of attributes that I hope to find in my future husband. These are also non-negotiable.
1. A God-fearing Reformed Christian
2. A servant leader with compassion and humility.
3. Be loving, caring and respectful.
4. Be dependable and trustworthy,
5. And be wise in many aspects but especially have wisdom about God's word.
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Time flies
So it has sadly been a month since I last posted. I have had little time to say something and have just been putting this off. The thing is that I don't really know what to write about. You could say many different things have happened, but you could also say nothing at all of great importance happened either. So here I am trying to make a decision on what to write about and how to say. I don't even know where to start.
Work has been steady and I am thankful for that. I regularly work on mondays, thursdays, fridays, and saturdays with two patients. It is nice to be able to go to the same patient on a regular schedule. When I first started working with this company I would get a few random shifts here and there. Would end up working with the patient for a few days and then my schedule would change because they didn't like me or the decided to cancel service with the company. So a lot of my work was short-lived and had not prior schedule set up. I would sometimes get a call asking if I could work the next morning or even later that day. Nothing seemed set in stone. I would sometimes be working a lot, and there were other times when I only worked one shift a week for about a month! It was hectic and stressed me out. So now that I have a regular schedule and regular patients I am really enjoying the fact that I have some decent pay checks and that I know I will have work for the next month or even a few months. Both patients and very nice and It is nice to be able to create a relationship with them. I don't always feel like I am doing much, but I know I am at least being a help to the families of these people. It surprises me that I have already been working with this company for 5 months now. Seems like yesterday when I didn't have a job.
My social life has been up and down. One good friend that I had who was able to do things with me at least once a week has now moved back home to Michigan. She has been living here in San Diego for 3 months helping her sister with the kids. But now she has moved back. The sad part is that she really loved it here and was devastated to be going home. But she had to go. I think it will be good for her to be back home, her family missed her and she was needed there. She does plan on coming back sometime before the end of the year even if just for a quick visit. So now I have to be responsible with my free time and not waste it on movies. Not having someone to do things with will be different and possibly hard, but I can manage it. I was able to before, and I can do it again.
One other friend came here for her spring break from school. I was able to do some fun things with her. We went to the Carlsbad Flower Fields for a day. It was fun and I had never been there before. It is a field that they cover in flowers of all colors and they make it look like a rainbow because the different colors are seperated from each other. In the end it is a beautiful effect. It is sad that she had to go so soon, but duty calls her elsewhere. On thing that saddens me is that she does not want to stay in San Diego the rest of her life. She does not really want to move back here after she finishes school. I really dont know what I would do if i knew she was never coming back permanently. But that will happen in the future. Doesn't our Lord say "Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself"? So I will try my best not to worry about it.
Here is a picture of me and my two friends at the flower fields.
After looking over what I have written, I have come to the conclusion that yes, things have happened to me this last month. They may not seem like big things at the moment, but in the long run I believe they are.
Until next time.
Work has been steady and I am thankful for that. I regularly work on mondays, thursdays, fridays, and saturdays with two patients. It is nice to be able to go to the same patient on a regular schedule. When I first started working with this company I would get a few random shifts here and there. Would end up working with the patient for a few days and then my schedule would change because they didn't like me or the decided to cancel service with the company. So a lot of my work was short-lived and had not prior schedule set up. I would sometimes get a call asking if I could work the next morning or even later that day. Nothing seemed set in stone. I would sometimes be working a lot, and there were other times when I only worked one shift a week for about a month! It was hectic and stressed me out. So now that I have a regular schedule and regular patients I am really enjoying the fact that I have some decent pay checks and that I know I will have work for the next month or even a few months. Both patients and very nice and It is nice to be able to create a relationship with them. I don't always feel like I am doing much, but I know I am at least being a help to the families of these people. It surprises me that I have already been working with this company for 5 months now. Seems like yesterday when I didn't have a job.
My social life has been up and down. One good friend that I had who was able to do things with me at least once a week has now moved back home to Michigan. She has been living here in San Diego for 3 months helping her sister with the kids. But now she has moved back. The sad part is that she really loved it here and was devastated to be going home. But she had to go. I think it will be good for her to be back home, her family missed her and she was needed there. She does plan on coming back sometime before the end of the year even if just for a quick visit. So now I have to be responsible with my free time and not waste it on movies. Not having someone to do things with will be different and possibly hard, but I can manage it. I was able to before, and I can do it again.
One other friend came here for her spring break from school. I was able to do some fun things with her. We went to the Carlsbad Flower Fields for a day. It was fun and I had never been there before. It is a field that they cover in flowers of all colors and they make it look like a rainbow because the different colors are seperated from each other. In the end it is a beautiful effect. It is sad that she had to go so soon, but duty calls her elsewhere. On thing that saddens me is that she does not want to stay in San Diego the rest of her life. She does not really want to move back here after she finishes school. I really dont know what I would do if i knew she was never coming back permanently. But that will happen in the future. Doesn't our Lord say "Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself"? So I will try my best not to worry about it.
Here is a picture of me and my two friends at the flower fields.
Priscilla, Jennifer(me), Rachel
BTW I colored my hair darker. I like it and that's all that matters.
Another thing that has happened to me is I have been reading the Hunger Games trilogy. I had heard they were good books and with all the hype about the movie coming out, I wanted to read at least the first book. Of course the first book is displayed in every bookstore now because of the movie. My mother reminded me that I could get it for my ereader. I havent been buying new books for it, so I decided to do it. I found the first book for $5 and started reading it the weekend the movie came out. I was working that weekend so I had a lot of time to read it and thus knew that I would not be seeing the movie that weekend. I liked the book so much, I was hooked. It's pretty much a story about a girl leading a rebellion against a government who likes to use the lower class people as a futuristic Gladiator form of entertainment. Through it all she has a romance between two boys and she cannot decide which one she has stronger feelings for. Honestly I feel like she throws kisses away way to much in the books. Yes it is mostly for show, but she gives them away almost as much as, if not more than her hugs! I find it a bit ridiculous and a little annoying, but that is my side-note opinion. I did see the movie and I thought it was very good and well done. They made it as close to the books as they could and I appreciate that. It is rather difficult to portray what a person is thinking in movies whereas in a book you know exactly what is running through their minds. So because they couldn't have her narrate her thoughts during the entire movie, I think they did a good job with what they could do. I personally believe it came out a much better movie than the movie Twilight did. Both movies are the first in a series of very popular books but in the movie the Hunger Games the acting was much better and it was obvious that the budget was bigger. Don't get me wrong, I do like the Twilight series, I just think the Hunger Games was done better. I could go on further about what I think of the book series, I am (according to my ereader) 75% through the last book of the Hunger Games trilogy. But I will save that for another post. After looking over what I have written, I have come to the conclusion that yes, things have happened to me this last month. They may not seem like big things at the moment, but in the long run I believe they are.
Until next time.
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